Welcome April :)

Hey there, this is a new begining. For me, and I hope for you too.
March has just ended, and thanks a lot for you guys to pay your attention and read all my march articles which was all about my silly casual relationship. And I swear not anymore, I'm over it now.
This month I have a plan to write some articles about celebs, do you guys agree?. Well I just want to share my opinions about them, especially their styles. I'm attract to something called fashion now.  I'm not fashionista, I don't deserve to call as fashionable girl, I'm far from that stuff. But, come on fashion is something fascinating. I do lookleting in my half time, that's fun.
This April, my first post after this note is dedicate to my best friend Unix Rahmasaputra. I want to let you know about someone who always special for me, he's my best friend Unix and I will write something about him right after this one.

Love
Restu Hapsari

you're my vanilla twilight

I Miss you, darling I wish you were here.

(this is trully what I feel, inspired by vanilla twilight - owl city)

The stars lean down to kiss you
And I lie awake and miss you
Pour me a heavy dose of atmosphere

'Cause I'll doze off safe and soundly
But I'll miss your arms around me
I'd send a postcard to you, dear
'Cause I wish you were here

I'll watch the night turn light-blue
But it's not the same without you
Because it takes two to whisper quietly

The silence isn't so bad
'Til I look at my hands and feel sad
'Cause the spaces between my fingers
Are right where yours fit perfectly

I'll find repose in new ways
Though I haven't slept in two days
'Cause cold nostalgia
Chills me to the bone

But drenched in vanilla twilight
I'll sit on the front porch all night
Waist-deep in thought because
When I think of you I don't feel so alone

I don't feel so alone, I don't feel so alone

As many times as I blink
I'll think of you tonight
I'll think of you tonight

When violet eyes get brighter
And heavy wings grow lighter
I'll taste the sky and feel alive again

And I'll forget the world that I knew
But I swear I won't forget you
Oh, if my voice could reach
Back through the past
I'd whisper in your ear
Oh darling, I wish you were here

Fairytale is never over. . . . .

I wish I was a princess, who live in my own dreamland....

I love to dream become a princess, my mom said it was normal :) yeah I told her when I was six. She has never hear this wildest dream of mine again right now, because I'm 19 now and it's impossible to tell this.

if you think I'm dreamer, don't stop to think about me that way.

Why??

Because that's fact, I'm truly dreamer.

I wont stop to always dreaming. I stay on my imagination, I love to be in a fairytale. I don't care what everybody think about me and all those my wildest dreams, as long as I live I wont leave my dream.

Fairytale is my favorite part in this life.

I bet it's the only thing in this real life that deserve to be everlasting forever. without fairytale there's nothing an image of happiness, this world might be hopeless and seems unreal. if you have no same idea with me about this, I wont to make you trust what I feel okay? no pressure this is just my thought.

I've been learning so much things through fairytale.

I was learn how to be brave as robin hood, I was learn how to be struggle as cinderella, I was learn how to trust my self as a tinkerbell, and I proud of archiles.

This world is getting seriously more and more  in every second. I don't know... but I couldn't feel and I don't even find the peace anymore. whenever I tune on TV and see the news, I always see there's a violence everywhere. a murder, war, fighting, gosh they were hurting each other and that's happen over and over again.

well, I don't mean to judge people with all their bad actions ( for me that's so annoying and pathetic, totally bad ). I just wondering why all those crazy things should be happened? I know every people have their own bussiness and their own life, I'm just a little girl who knows nothing. but I really miss the peace and  the sincere love to be spread. I really do hope this isn't real. maybe I don't know everything all about the agression between a states, or what become the reasons behind a fighting tragedy in the court room. I never understand, and I'm not interest to understand at all. I just want to listen a bird whistling without any sounds of gunners, all I want to hear is the children crooning without fear. all we need is a peaceful world, as a fairytale.

Everytime I close my eyes, I dream of a fairytale.

I have more than any dreamland on my fairytale world.

I feel the peace.

it's ain't about I wanna be a princess, I'm a princess on my own way. at least everyone can be anything whatever they want to be as long as they believe themselves they can do it. well, I'm on that way.

But it's more than that.

more than a tale of prince and princess, more than a tale of brisies and archiles, more than a tale of alice in a wonderland..

I just can find what I want to hear here, I can feel what I want to feel here, I can see what I want to see here.

It's better for me.

It's better when I dream about my dreamland with all these an amazing things on it, than I lived for a cruelty, hurting each other, cheating, eventhough it's the real life.

I wish I'm a pixie from a fairytale so I could brighten the whole entire world with a love.

So I can see the sincere wide smile in the morning and laugh loudly in the night.

And I will make this fairytale never over.

Fairytale become a Reality.

 

T.H.A.N.K.S

to making me smile like this :)

Restu Hapsari say thank you FAIRYTALES.

You're my Best Friend, You're my Best Man

Hello Boy :)

 

You looked so cool when you hold that Basketball. I never thought that we could be friend. I still remember when you came to me, it's wednesday. anyway I really want to tell you this, and I think it's more than just "THIS". you were my bestfriend. and you will be the best thing that I ever had forever. don't ask me why ! because I can't found the reason why, don't beg me to stop please ! because it wont stop dear. I will be your friend forever.

We could talk about something serious or talk about nothing. You told me about a girl and I told you about a boy, maybe when we brought a book at the school corridor or when we shared the headset heard the adam's song.

Everyday was ordinary, almost unremarkable.

But I still remember how the way you laugh when the silliest things attacked you.

Dear my Best Friend, if I have to give you something I wish I could give you an ability to see how you shine on me, Brighten me, you're my superman, no.. no..no.. you have no super force power !! you're my special ordinary boy :)

It's sounds crazy..

I miss you.

I miss you as my truly best friend.

we're seems so far away.

seriously, I miss your presence.

People.

we're just people.

changing anytime and can't control the fate.

try hard to make it.

sometimes everything goes wrong, it doesn't work out.

Never.

I never leave your world.

when the whole world againts you.

I will never forget and leave you alone.

You're My Best Friend

You're the best man that I've ever knew.

I LOVE YOU

as my best friend, as my brother.

as you are.

Some notes from facebook

Hey teman - teman, kali ini saya akan mengcopy semua yang pernah saya tulis di notes facebook saya. facebook saya akhirnya di hack juga :'( untuk yang kedua kalinya. I'm kinda stressed out !! tapi nampaknya saya nggak bisa berbuat apa - apa selain mengamankan semua yang pernah saya shared disitu sebelum nantinya bermasalah.
Disini saya akan menulis kembali catatan - catatan kecil saya di facebook tersebut, terimakasih buat yang memberikan atensi :)

Ini notes saya yang terakhir sebelum akhirnya lima menit kemudian saya tidak bisa log in kembali

Seriously, I have no idea :)

Yes, I have no idea to titled this notes.
I don't know why today there's so many things happened to me.
Laugh, Cry, and finally Smile :)
I'm so humanise, sometimes I hide all those pathetic things in me. I think there's no one need to know about it.
But I'm glad when they told me that my eyes won't lie, it showes the real I am.

And today, all those phase distortion was on me.
Sometimes, I don't know what I really want and I'm so tired of the drama.. pretending everyday.
I just want to bea normal. I want all those dreams.. my dreams seems like a castle in the sky.
I say I'm not breaking as my spell everytime I started to fall.
but, it's never enough to make me stronger.
I may looked so toughful and so calm facing all those crazy things in this life.

Hey... I'm not a sailormoon neither or xena the warrior princess.
I'm so ordinary, bit of a bored, and yeah I may not be brave.
But, I believe in a thing called Faith.
I trust the power of me is my Faith.


This notes I dedicate to all my besties in the world :

My mom, My dad, and My bro who have no facebook account ( I can't tag but I hope you know that I really love my family ). My bestfriends, best buddys, best partner Jagonk they are Nenden, Dian, Widy, Miemy, Ricky, Irwin, Haris, Dimas, Ciman, Abet.. you know I never learned to smile without you all. My dear brother, bestfriend, best man who always listen all bored stories in me Unix rahmasaputra.. well I don't know how to tell you, you always makes me feel better :). My besties Ndud, Acid, Deis, Pipit, and all of my firend on college who always smile for me.. thanks for every moments that you ever spend with me, that's so unforgotable :). For all of my sistas and bff on this facebook Arrantxa, Lily, Sara, Ivana,Nur, Angelina.. thanks a lot to throw away my emptiness when I'm alone, you guys the sweetest things that I ever found :). For my special girl who always makes me smile and happy.. she's my BSF Tamey Cansin, you're my sista forever thanks for the joy you bring to me :). For the girl next my door haha ayu, thanks to accompany me everyday :).

THANKS.. THANKS.. THANKS.. THANKS..
thanks to energized me, I'm so happy to have you arround. I'm so sorry if I have made any mistakes to you all..

special to my jagonk, as ricky always said : you're never walk alone :) :)

I LOVE YOU MORE THAN I CAN SAY :)
BIG THANKS TO YOU ALL :)
<3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3

ini notes yang sebelumnya, pada saat saya menulis ini saya dalam keadaan yang emosional nampaknya :)

I don't believe in a words " Forever " and " always " (you may say it's my monologue)

I remember when we started on wednesday, you texted me and told me that you needed help.
and I helped you sincerely so I texted you back.
we're friends and I don't even know anything about you. we know each other but not really.
till that day when I was alone and waited for my friends in the morning, you say hello.
and then we talked about something, we've been connected since that day.
I'm so happy when I talked to you, you was there wherever I am.
and I loved to call you my bestfriend.
we're together. me, you, and another my bestfriends.
we spend our last moment before we're graduate together, breaking my rules cause I was in home late at night. but, yeah that's so fun and unforgotable.
we're closer more than just a friend. I told you everything, you told me everything.
and untill that words came from you :
" I will always by your side whenever you fall down and we're never apart, cause we're inseparable and you're irreplacable forever "

and now I just can sing :

"cause it's seems to me this things are breaking down.
we almost never speak I dont feel welcome anymore.
baby what happened please tell me
cause one second it was perfect, now you're half away out door

was I out of line? did I say something to honest?
made you run and hide like a scared little boy
I looked into your eyes, thought I knew you for a minute
now I'm not so sure

and I stare, at the phone
you still hasn't called
and then you feel so low you can't feel, nothing at all
and I started flashback to when you said forever and always

and it's rains in your bedroom, everything is wrong
it rains when you here and it rains when your gone
cause I was there when you said forever and always"

I dont really believe if there's a thing would be everlasting.
not " forever and always " but " always nothing last forever "

Everlasting Memories

It so reminding and feels like has been recorded obviously all the memories that will never been erased and I will never to get over it from the story book of my life. eventhough that's the saddest tales of mine. and that's why you will always be exist there, forever.

I still remember what song's that you ever sang at that moment, a moment when you lean on my shoulder and you sang it out loud. everything seems like recorded on a compact - disc and I can press play anytime when I want to see it.

You are more than just a thing, although you will never be more than a thing that could defeat my power now. but, you're the one who create that something called power in me, you makes me looked stronger than before already. you also taught me how to leave something that unimportant to be maintained. you make me stronger, make me more understand, more to be realistic, and more to appreciated what I get and what I have.

You're not a hero. you're just a boy with a simple things and so easy to be guessed. but, you're like a sunlight who always warm me up after the rain fall made me feel so cold when I waited for the rainbow. eventhough I dont even  know when will the rainbow gonna be sees. and you noticed me that sunlight will always shine on everyday, although it could be fogbound sometime. that's you, you're the sunlight who always makes me believe without a point of a reasons.

I will never be too much when I tell something about you, I will never do that. it doesn't mean that you not to be deserve that, but I'm always wants you to stay in your characther. honestly, I'm always learned something from your humanise characthers.and guess what, I was realizing about something when you cry in front of me. that I was admit my weakness. it caused I cry too, same as you. you looked so brave just like superman when you stand beside me, but you also looked tearful when you cry just like a baby. and I feel the same way. I'm not strong as I guess before ( something that I will never want to admit ).

People are people, they can changing when they think need something to be changed. but, I'm ever ask God, I asked  " please, keep him safe on his self so he wont be changed ". but, I know now it's impossible. people always changing because it's a human nature. and it's happened to you, now you looks so joyable with your slow changed.

I will make a confessions :

I really missing you so much.

I think I'm normal, it's just very normal when I miss your laugh in front of me, I miss you share anything with me. because, I feel so different now. you're walk through so far with the wind arround you, with your changed.

maybe I looked so sad, but I believe you will always shine on.

you're mean a lot for me, eventhough I can't says that you're my everything. because you will never got my whole heart. and I will never stay in your heart forever, although I can still remember when you say that I'm irreplaceable. we're just ordinary people, we will be changed everytime without any awarness.

But, I will always remember you.

I will save you in my story book, in my memory that I will never erase.

I will remember you with all the revolution of your self changed.

and wait for you to sing a song and lean on my shoulder anymore.

I love you my best friend.

I love you my sunlight.

Lazy morning :)

hey world good morning :)

it's not really in the morning actually, it's 10:06 here, and I just woke up from my bed and still need some sleep maybe lol :D. but the sunshine outside the window was not permit me to do that :(

I think this day could be my lazy day, it's lazy morning. I have no schedule today.

it's gonna be fun all day long I wish.

But, I still miss my family so much, I really wanna come home and joy my lazy time there.

that's so pathetic :(

can't wait for next month and I will come home.

Okay let's back to the first point.

it's lazy morning.

what you gonna do if you have free time like this?