Everlasting Memories

It so reminding and feels like has been recorded obviously all the memories that will never been erased and I will never to get over it from the story book of my life. eventhough that's the saddest tales of mine. and that's why you will always be exist there, forever.

I still remember what song's that you ever sang at that moment, a moment when you lean on my shoulder and you sang it out loud. everything seems like recorded on a compact - disc and I can press play anytime when I want to see it.

You are more than just a thing, although you will never be more than a thing that could defeat my power now. but, you're the one who create that something called power in me, you makes me looked stronger than before already. you also taught me how to leave something that unimportant to be maintained. you make me stronger, make me more understand, more to be realistic, and more to appreciated what I get and what I have.

You're not a hero. you're just a boy with a simple things and so easy to be guessed. but, you're like a sunlight who always warm me up after the rain fall made me feel so cold when I waited for the rainbow. eventhough I dont even  know when will the rainbow gonna be sees. and you noticed me that sunlight will always shine on everyday, although it could be fogbound sometime. that's you, you're the sunlight who always makes me believe without a point of a reasons.

I will never be too much when I tell something about you, I will never do that. it doesn't mean that you not to be deserve that, but I'm always wants you to stay in your characther. honestly, I'm always learned something from your humanise characthers.and guess what, I was realizing about something when you cry in front of me. that I was admit my weakness. it caused I cry too, same as you. you looked so brave just like superman when you stand beside me, but you also looked tearful when you cry just like a baby. and I feel the same way. I'm not strong as I guess before ( something that I will never want to admit ).

People are people, they can changing when they think need something to be changed. but, I'm ever ask God, I asked  " please, keep him safe on his self so he wont be changed ". but, I know now it's impossible. people always changing because it's a human nature. and it's happened to you, now you looks so joyable with your slow changed.

I will make a confessions :

I really missing you so much.

I think I'm normal, it's just very normal when I miss your laugh in front of me, I miss you share anything with me. because, I feel so different now. you're walk through so far with the wind arround you, with your changed.

maybe I looked so sad, but I believe you will always shine on.

you're mean a lot for me, eventhough I can't says that you're my everything. because you will never got my whole heart. and I will never stay in your heart forever, although I can still remember when you say that I'm irreplaceable. we're just ordinary people, we will be changed everytime without any awarness.

But, I will always remember you.

I will save you in my story book, in my memory that I will never erase.

I will remember you with all the revolution of your self changed.

and wait for you to sing a song and lean on my shoulder anymore.

I love you my best friend.

I love you my sunlight.

Oh I really proud of this one girl very much

Good evening worldie :)
Worldie, today I'm happy because I was change my blog's look, and you can see now my blog page is more fascinating to look than before. yaay :D
Btw, today I was chatted with my friend tarra and she's my friend on facebook. she's talented on writing and I hope we could go on chat anymore someday.
Well, worldie I have told you before about my dream and how am I interest with writing. Yes I wish with writing I can do something worth and could be a part of the greatest thing in the world.
Okay worldie, do you know who is alanda kariza ? if you're the reader of gogirl magazine or cosmogirl magazine you must be know who she is. Yes, she's a young girl, an amazing young girl actually.
Alanda kariza was started her goals with writing articles in some magazines and websites, and then I read her blog and guess what I really love to read what she wrote.
Simple but so interesting, as a young girl she's really really awesome. now she's 18 years old, younger than me. But, she has so many cool experience and you know guys I'm always envy her ( in positive ).
Now I'm 19 and I still doing nothing here, I dont want to be too ordinary. I'm always eager to be special, do the special things exactly. I really wanna hear my mom said " I'm proud of you ".
and alanda's mom must be so lucky and proud of their pretty girl.
Yesterday, I was posted a comment on Indonesian youth conference page. and the page was told us that alanda kariza will flight to london tomorrow and that means tonight, she will attend GYS 2009 overthere. and I say : " omg I really want it "
alanda is always making me amazed her and I was agape when I saw everything that relate to her. and I wanna be like her, wanna be like her.

This is alanda when she was attending Guildford forum Global Change makers as representative of Indonesia

Alanda was attended global change makers and also British council, and I was read on her blog that both of the programme was helping her to get connected with a wide of the world. she was attended the programme which attended by youth of nation arround the world. she wrote on her blog that we can do the same thing with attending global change maker as her, I wanna attending but still confuse how to apply.
and I will do more actions by following the community like that, who knows I'm the next alanda. eventhough I'm older than her. So, I will apply for British Council firstly and then I will apply for Global change makers.

Maybe you may think that I'm not creative and just plagiary of alanda. But, I dont really care, to be more creative I have inspiration and she's alanda kariza. I wish she could read what I write about her and in one day I hope I can meet her.
Worldie, I suggest you to read alanda's blog, you can find her on www.alandakariza.com and trust me she's so adorable :)

me and tamey <3

Hey worldie good day :)
well, yesterday I didn't write because I have to went out so I can't write.
But today I'm back to write again :)
Worldie, last night I was talk to my friend, actually my best friend she's tamey. Tamey is the one of my friend from turkey and guess what, we have never meet in a real world before, I just know her over facebook, she's so kind and helpful. so, we're being friend. even best friend and now I called her sissy (means sister).
I was tell her my little secret last night and talk with her is always so fun and makes me feel better. okay worldie, I just want to tell you that's tamey are so amazing, she's a good friend for me. so, now I will tell you what was me and tamey always talk about.
it's DREAM.
both of us has one dream, a big dream.
I wanna be an author and tamey wanna be a popular singer, and I know that's so ridiculous for some people. because, it was a dream of little child on five year, haha :P sometimes I think so.
But you know what, me and tamey really want it all, we think our dream is important thing and we should fight to achieve.
 Dream for us are weapon to fight all of crazy thing in this world, we wont judge our selves that we can't do something. we will pushes our selves that we can do everything. and we know we can do it.