Fairytale is never over. . . . .

I wish I was a princess, who live in my own dreamland....

I love to dream become a princess, my mom said it was normal :) yeah I told her when I was six. She has never hear this wildest dream of mine again right now, because I'm 19 now and it's impossible to tell this.

if you think I'm dreamer, don't stop to think about me that way.

Why??

Because that's fact, I'm truly dreamer.

I wont stop to always dreaming. I stay on my imagination, I love to be in a fairytale. I don't care what everybody think about me and all those my wildest dreams, as long as I live I wont leave my dream.

Fairytale is my favorite part in this life.

I bet it's the only thing in this real life that deserve to be everlasting forever. without fairytale there's nothing an image of happiness, this world might be hopeless and seems unreal. if you have no same idea with me about this, I wont to make you trust what I feel okay? no pressure this is just my thought.

I've been learning so much things through fairytale.

I was learn how to be brave as robin hood, I was learn how to be struggle as cinderella, I was learn how to trust my self as a tinkerbell, and I proud of archiles.

This world is getting seriously more and more  in every second. I don't know... but I couldn't feel and I don't even find the peace anymore. whenever I tune on TV and see the news, I always see there's a violence everywhere. a murder, war, fighting, gosh they were hurting each other and that's happen over and over again.

well, I don't mean to judge people with all their bad actions ( for me that's so annoying and pathetic, totally bad ). I just wondering why all those crazy things should be happened? I know every people have their own bussiness and their own life, I'm just a little girl who knows nothing. but I really miss the peace and  the sincere love to be spread. I really do hope this isn't real. maybe I don't know everything all about the agression between a states, or what become the reasons behind a fighting tragedy in the court room. I never understand, and I'm not interest to understand at all. I just want to listen a bird whistling without any sounds of gunners, all I want to hear is the children crooning without fear. all we need is a peaceful world, as a fairytale.

Everytime I close my eyes, I dream of a fairytale.

I have more than any dreamland on my fairytale world.

I feel the peace.

it's ain't about I wanna be a princess, I'm a princess on my own way. at least everyone can be anything whatever they want to be as long as they believe themselves they can do it. well, I'm on that way.

But it's more than that.

more than a tale of prince and princess, more than a tale of brisies and archiles, more than a tale of alice in a wonderland..

I just can find what I want to hear here, I can feel what I want to feel here, I can see what I want to see here.

It's better for me.

It's better when I dream about my dreamland with all these an amazing things on it, than I lived for a cruelty, hurting each other, cheating, eventhough it's the real life.

I wish I'm a pixie from a fairytale so I could brighten the whole entire world with a love.

So I can see the sincere wide smile in the morning and laugh loudly in the night.

And I will make this fairytale never over.

Fairytale become a Reality.

 

T.H.A.N.K.S

to making me smile like this :)

Restu Hapsari say thank you FAIRYTALES.

You're my Best Friend, You're my Best Man

Hello Boy :)

 

You looked so cool when you hold that Basketball. I never thought that we could be friend. I still remember when you came to me, it's wednesday. anyway I really want to tell you this, and I think it's more than just "THIS". you were my bestfriend. and you will be the best thing that I ever had forever. don't ask me why ! because I can't found the reason why, don't beg me to stop please ! because it wont stop dear. I will be your friend forever.

We could talk about something serious or talk about nothing. You told me about a girl and I told you about a boy, maybe when we brought a book at the school corridor or when we shared the headset heard the adam's song.

Everyday was ordinary, almost unremarkable.

But I still remember how the way you laugh when the silliest things attacked you.

Dear my Best Friend, if I have to give you something I wish I could give you an ability to see how you shine on me, Brighten me, you're my superman, no.. no..no.. you have no super force power !! you're my special ordinary boy :)

It's sounds crazy..

I miss you.

I miss you as my truly best friend.

we're seems so far away.

seriously, I miss your presence.

People.

we're just people.

changing anytime and can't control the fate.

try hard to make it.

sometimes everything goes wrong, it doesn't work out.

Never.

I never leave your world.

when the whole world againts you.

I will never forget and leave you alone.

You're My Best Friend

You're the best man that I've ever knew.

I LOVE YOU

as my best friend, as my brother.

as you are.

goshh... I didn't write for like years.

Hey there, I'm really sorry ( again ) because I had no notes on this blog since one month ago. well actually I was at home lately and when I'm home I have so many things to do instead of blogging :(
and you know what, I have so many things to say right now..

1. January :
on january I was almost spend my whole time at home, doing some house work and chit chat with my mom in every hour. I feel this is rarely happen in me ( I stay in a different city with my family ) so it's amazing to hear my mom's voice everyday and we're arguing in some points sometimes. on last January was so unremarkable for me, eventhough I was spend my time mostly at home without any vacation but there's something that always success makes me smile. and I was wondering why, how come all those little things like read the text messages bring me to the happiness all day long? I mean I was with a wide smile when I woke up in the morning and still did the same way when I have to close my eyes at night. haha.. I just found someone. I and him are really good friend now, we're happy for being close friend :)) kinda flirting.. LOL !!
January was so colorful.. it was pink means happy, white means brighten me, yellow means surprised me, blue means I was sad too. I was pink when all those little things happen to me and makes me laugh and smile a whole day. I was white because I thought about everything... all the planing that I planed for my self in a future, and I was just found the slowly direction to achieve it. beside that I was look back on a past, actually when I was 16, the first time I shared my thought by using blog and goshh... I was so young, juvenile on writing and looked unpretty on a photo. but I love being me, I love spending my time for writing and reading. I was yellow when I know that I've become the one of nomination for shorty awards on twitter. so surprised when google showed me : Restu Hapsari ( restu_etuu ) was nominated for shorty awards. and I was so confused then, I mean I don't have much follower on my twitter I don't even have a list on my twitter. and again I said " how come ?? " but honestly it was making me flattered. I was blue when I found my study results on a college in third semester is worse than before, I was crying in front of the computer as shit. but then I realized this is all my fault, maybe I didn't fight all out. and miley's song made my spirit up, I love the climb that's my anthem :). and I'm so sad when I missed my lovely sister TAMEY, we had no talk for a long time and I miss her so bad.
well my holiday has ended on a last january, I was back to Bandung at 1 february.

2. February:
I'm being collegian again on this february, and my starting point on this semester has been getting started that means I have to work out!!
I wanna write some articles for some medias this month, I wish it could be published soon :))
and I'm blogging again :))